[self.animated]

2005-01-16T00:26:00.000-08:00

for the first time i actually found out what's its like to be touched by music. its like, i could just sit there and listen to it play on ahhh. perhaps that's what happiness feels like?

2005-01-11T04:52:00.000-08:00

ok its kinda late to be talking abt orientation but so far sch's going well :) anw, met our jap tcher today! haha, i'm darn excited abt jap lessons though i'm thinking of switching to trip sc. but guess what i dreamt of myself talking to a six yr old jap boy! in jap cool huh and i told him to keep in touch by writing letters haha. maybe that's a sign that i shld stick to my present combi hmm. may

2004-12-20T01:24:00.000-08:00

yayy! i finally got contacts!!! so happy. and i just bought my sports shoes as well ok so now i'm left with my bag haha. but anw thanks to all of you who msged or called to wish me a happy birthday! you guys really made my day with all of yr greetings. love you all loads. nc16, here i come! :P

2004-12-15T12:52:00.000-08:00

its 5 in the morning! and i'm still awake haha been online since like 10 last night i'm here because i'm too bored prob because of the coffee too well my brother and cousin are still playing dino crisis hmm and i need to go jp/westmall tmr i mean today whooo~ my stomach's rumbling ok pls pardon the ramblings of a depraved mind. just disregard this

2004-11-30T05:43:00.000-08:00

i'm trying maybe not as hard as i would like myself to but at least i'm trying well you need to hands to clap so much for my futile attempts

2004-11-30T05:39:00.000-08:00

you have no idea how fast my heart's thumping my fingers are positively turning cold gosh, you have no idea none at all

2004-11-26T01:04:00.000-08:00

argh you know how it is when you really want to do smthg but there's smthg holding you back smthg as simple as saying hi can be so hard

2004-04-29T07:53:00.000-07:00

sad ):

2004-04-19T07:04:00.000-07:00

grr. seriously. just get off my back. i've had enough of this. i'm only this close to screaming. why do i see no end to this. -grits.

2003-12-16T23:45:00.000-08:00

hmm decided to unstagnify my blog. four mths since ive last blogged? haha wow. going out with xinpei tmr morn! hehh she's treating me in commemoration of my bdae. lol. hmm i seriously have no idea what to blog abt... that probably suggests what a bland life i'm living and why i havent been blogging for so long. ha. i want to go out to buy xmas presents. but i cant seem to find a time. esp

2003-08-15T07:09:00.000-07:00

haha i'm blogging at long last. hmm. time flies. really fast. feeling kinda nostalgic.. really miss some stuff and people. but i guess some things just can't be changed aft all time cant be reversed. just got to learn to deal. anw, today's been an ok day. the chem test aside. get ready to say bye to my a1..-echos bye- but still quite happy today.. heard smthng that brightened up my day. haha to

2003-07-11T17:59:00.000-07:00

twisted. screwed. that's what everything is. sometimes, the truth just stings too much.

2003-07-08T02:00:00.000-07:00

listen to your heart trust that gut feeling follow your intuition well if there's one thing i've learnt it's to go with my instincts i guess i just need the confidence to believe in what i do maybe i can't alleviate the situation but at least i know it can't get worse now all ive got to do, is to believe in that all the way :)

2003-07-06T00:34:00.000-07:00

hey i just want to say a huge thanks to those who's been here for me this period of time meix, xins, est, yiling, jor, osy, shunting, michelle, minyi, steph, weilin, shubei, mrs quek, mrs ang.. and everybody else..thanks for showing me yr concern.. love you guys loads..-hugs- hmm i guess i've changed my template to sort of feel like im starting afresh if the pic on top doesn't show, just right

2003-06-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

dearest cass it had never ever crossed my mind that what happened would happen you've always been so full of vitality and spirit bringing happiness and light into the lives of those around you i remember the things we've done together the words of encouragement, acts of concern you've showered upon me how you've helped me brainstorm for that thing how you've touched me with that note on my table

2003-04-30T06:10:00.000-07:00

something's seriously not right with me i nearly cried this morning over nthng impt then on my way home frm third lang i almost broke down but i guess it had smthng to do with that too just smthng inexplicable. literally

2003-04-26T22:45:00.000-07:00

aiyo eh! wrong link lar gurl! LoL... anywayx.. i'll kick myself out from ur blog after editin tt link... so dun worry :D

2003-04-26T04:43:00.000-07:00

get out of my head. ugh.

2003-04-19T06:24:00.000-07:00

hahax... wellx... too bad... u have to kick me out b4 i stop praisin myself up e skies! ;P

2003-04-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

haha really like my new blog template..too bad the flower can't be seen. bleahs. anw, think the colours are simple yet nice. lol. thnx est! haha but u can stop singing your own praises lol..:) anw. i realised that playing the guitar is very good finger excercise. the notes we played today were like so difficult esp the chords. my fingers were like all tangled up haha. must continue wking on it..!

2003-04-17T03:10:00.000-07:00

esther's SOoo kind... manx... now YOUR blog's nicer than mine... nvm... i still like mine more...

2003-04-14T05:59:00.000-07:00

sick of all the self denial those words that kill just to be said. argh

2003-04-02T22:15:00.000-08:00

The Iraq-US war has by far, been nothing but a huge abomination. Citizens living in the perpetual fear of having a bomb dropped above their heads any moment. the number of deaths, amount of blood shed has far surpassed what we call 'appalling' with every attack and bombing premeditated many thousands are left dead, each unaccounted for. so is this the pathetic state we have chosen one filled with

2003-04-01T01:23:00.000-08:00

if you can't go for the extremes maybe neutrality will do the job. yeah if only it were that easy

2003-03-30T00:20:00.000-08:00

it takes a lot for you to stand up to those cynical criticisms yet even more for you to stand true to yourself but ||you||did it. sometimes i just wish..

2003-03-28T02:59:00.000-08:00

had my rare consumption of frozen glucose today caramel almond fudge icecream is totally out of the world just so melt-in-your-mouth delicious -burps- oops.

2003-03-17T05:11:00.000-08:00

food for thought: people quote "the truth will set you free" yet there's the saying which reads "ignorance is bliss" provocative phrases controversial issues thumbs up-- all's well for the latter.

2003-03-11T01:27:00.000-08:00

words can work wonders invigoration at its best.

2003-03-04T03:07:00.000-08:00

if dere's one thing to teach myself it's got to be never succumb to temptation. ever somebody drill that into my head pls. somehw i juz can't seem to get it in.

2003-02-28T05:05:00.000-08:00

smtimes i really wish i wld jz collapse and die figured it doesn't realli matter coz to be dead is better than to be living dead ya 'gree?

2003-02-26T04:33:00.000-08:00

sleep. dats the only thing on my mind right nw. to slp and forget all this. can't believe i did that stupid thing or din do, for that matter. tell me im a goner. zhiling, u are a goner sleep, here i come.

2003-02-23T02:48:00.000-08:00

been feeling very kinda low and melancholic these few daes. so wrote the below poem just for the kicks. it kinda perk me up a bit aft that. kinda and to everyone out dere i call this LOVE NOT REQUITTED lol. beneath your submissive exterior i see a heart of gold shining ever so bright yet you've hurt me unknowingly time and again with your seemingly callous selfless acts and words the pain

2003-02-21T02:30:00.000-08:00

when has a sheer movement of lips looked so beautiful when has a word sounded so musical when has life started turning right again when u smiled. when u spoke. when u came into my life. u are the torch which lights my heart guiding me, holding me while i grope about in the dark u are my walking stick when i fumble when i'm hurt u are the shooting star across my nite sky inevitably momentary

2003-02-18T02:19:00.000-08:00

i see dere's obviously this thing goin on abt hu the dedication is for. well the only thing i can say is: its for someone. a fren of mine. for -clears throat- those hu think otherwise um, reality check? SERIOUSLY. lol

2003-02-14T22:46:00.000-08:00

haha actually i had lotsa 'inspiration' to blog yest abt v dae..juz that i was too tired. so i'll do it nw..morn was grt..had so much fun distributing the stuff..luckily dere was no morn assembly..wld be so unwilling to go dwn. den we had free period first two lessons. est and i were standing outside our class trying to get sum wind..i was absolutly dying frm the heat coz the fans were off. haha

2003-02-14T03:34:00.000-08:00

hey hey happi v dae ppl! wow our sch was like in a real commotion today ppl going everywhere with their hands full of stuff tho it can be pretty stress-inducing too slpt at two juz to finish all the bkmarks and to hlp my bro with his scroll ahem. oh well. YAWN

2003-02-08T03:57:00.000-08:00

i'm trying i'm realli trying nt to let all this bug me bt maybe its true dat if u try u'll never be able to do it dere's no point in anithing so y shld i even bother y am i diggin a pit fer myself to fall in dunno all the questions no answers i'm realli angry realli sad bt nobody will understand nobody will care this feeling is all too familar n i HATE it so there.

2003-02-07T03:54:00.000-08:00

i realise all my entries are like realli short. (ermx actually est pointed dat out to me lahs) nwaes i shall make it a long one today..so. lets tok abt invest. haha actually i got oni one word--> great. as in it was realli interesting we had lotsa fun! nt to mention we got to slack no need to go fer lessons. got to see lotsa ppl in their court shoes..(btw est its nt my -ahem-'dearest'..haha..u

2003-02-07T02:13:00.000-08:00

omg. omg. omg. omg. OMG.

2003-02-01T07:14:00.000-08:00

today's a grt day..qt happy :) jin zhuang si da cai zi was the last epsde today! realli love that show. hahas. ::OSY:: hw can u say they are monkeys they are so nice..haha anw hu's the SHE ur toking abt? :p

2003-01-31T01:35:00.000-08:00

its this feeling i get. can't analyse it. kinda sad, kinda wistful. i dunno. it's too complicated. watevas

2003-01-31T01:32:00.001-08:00

haha

2003-01-31T01:32:00.000-08:00

happy cny ppl! haha i'm so happy nthng can dampen my mood.. ks maybe not nthng but nvm. can't believe i missed the footage on our sch yest. managed to catch only the last part but then i was on the fone so can't hear what they said. i was like waiting to watch it on the telecast today. but they din play it when i waited. hmmph.. nwaes happy cny! tc ppl...

2003-01-25T22:43:00.000-08:00

btw CNY stands fer smthng besides chinese new year, that is. anyone can figure? -smirks-

2003-01-25T22:12:00.000-08:00

hey guys realised smthng different abt my blog? yea dats rite zhiling manged to successfully create links and her own so called personal corner! so u see miracles do happen, u noe? cheers.

2003-01-24T05:52:00.000-08:00

i realised that everyone can be happy even when confined within his or her own little space there is always smone out there hu matters so much it makes u smile bt smhw this prevailing thot doesn't seem to work for me nt aft what happened during maths todae yet another painful reminder

2003-01-19T05:17:00.000-08:00

it's mon tmr again..the start of another new wk. kinda excited abt tmr tho. shh.. haha its nthng big actually.. but still, i can't wait.. opps still owe nic n meixuan their letters. hope they dun remember haha. -crosses fingers- tc ppl..

2003-01-19T05:13:00.000-08:00

sheesh i tried editing my blog's html. haha but it turned out realli horrible. like all the stuff turned out at the wrong places. i'm web-challenged. hah.

2003-01-18T04:45:00.000-08:00

has it ever crossed anybody's mind that i'm sadistic? -wonders-

2003-01-17T02:04:00.000-08:00

i realised dere's smthng abt me n the s-es nwades. heyS, dun think dirty, think think clean hahS. wat were you ppl thinking? yuppS. wateverS. there. u get what i means mean.

2003-01-14T04:51:00.000-08:00

today's interview was a total F-L-O-P flop was like stuttering my way thru. but at least i sayed pretty much hw i felt. -seeking solace in dat lone thot- geez. ::parrot:: dun worry yeas? i'm sure u'll make it..ur ans sounded pretty gd..haha

2003-01-11T20:02:00.000-08:00

kx i thot i've long gotten over it. but i juz realised dat its still haunting at the back of my mind.. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ , if u happen to read this, i juz wanna say a huge sorry...

2003-01-10T01:34:00.000-08:00

my wk's been qt busy. kinda messed up. n i predict it will get worse. haha. but i'm really thnkful for all the activities i'm involved in. its a really gd learning experience for me. ^_^

2003-01-07T01:43:00.000-08:00

interviewed the sec 1s today..it was so fun! i must say majority of them r pretty bold. nt shy like we wld expect them to be..will make really gd n confident speakers..wellx lets jz say it wld be cool if dey can join us..nwaes lessons todae were qt ok i guess. mr gan is v nice..it wuz like i fnd him v comical dunno y oso so i kept laughin to myself..hah i'm so lame. sheesh i feel realli tired.

2003-01-03T02:01:00.000-08:00

haha it's a hap hap happy day! well hse elections went ok todae..sihui (is dat hw u spell her name?) is our blue hse capt nxt yr..hmm dun noe her so can't realli comment..pity ____ din become..i'm sure she wld do a really grt job. -smiles- nwaes we had this tunin into self tok by mrs kuek..kinda borin..plus we got this huge scoldin frm mrs chong coz she saed the back ppl weren't payin attention

2003-01-01T23:51:00.000-08:00

went joggin w my dad yest evening..den it started pouring. so we waited at the specs stand fer the rain to stop but it only got heavier. haha i got so impatient i kept tellin my dad to juz go hm in the rain..n i guess in the end he got tired of waiting so he gave in to me. we were like running across the road n thru the park under the heavy rain..heheh but it wuz so fun..became totally drenched.

2002-12-31T05:47:00.000-08:00

got my new class yest..i'm in 3 truth nxt yr..realli sad coz i'm separated frm a lot of ppl frm 2w.. a lot of mep students in my class..seen dem arnd a lot of times b4 but dun noe dem..kept tellin myself to keep an open mind n heart..God is probably giving me this opportunity to make more frens. which i'm sure i will. haha kx i'm nt realli in the mood to blog animore..juz wanna wish everyone out

2002-12-28T19:49:00.000-08:00

wow guess i must haf sounded pretty despondent dwn below..when i get into some kinda mood i juz can't seem to snap out of it..oh well. anw we'll know our nxt yr's class tmr! so exciting..haha..wonder hu my form t will be? can't wait..well sch's startin soon..n it'll be back to those kinda days again..haha so guess i'll juz hafta make the most of wats left of the hols.. ok i realised dat the past

2002-12-26T00:12:00.000-08:00

smhw i juz feel so betrayed like if i hadn't told her, all this wldn't haf happened i noe she din mean it or anithin, n i shldn't hold it 'gainst her but its juz this feeling of betrayal dats enclosing my heart whether dere's enuff reason to suffice it. or not. i shld haf known this wld be a mistake rite frm the start. but i still cont'd anw.. i hate to be so susceptible to such things. i hate

2002-12-25T02:19:00.000-08:00

hey ppl out dere wishin ya guys the merriest xmas! haf loadsa fun n e time of ur life todae! the sleigh bells ring, r ya listenin' ... ... we're happy tonite, in a winter wonderland the middle isn't s'posed to be dots. juz dat i fergot the words. but still.. pretty, ain't it? high fives.

2002-12-23T02:09:00.000-08:00

btw, lord of the rings is grt! i realli enjoyed the movie..can't wait fer the 3rd one to come out..nw i've got one more fav eng movie besides harry potter. haha yea n i gotta admit dat despite my past persistence, legolas greenleaf is indeed gdlookin..(rite lynn?) realized dat when i watched the movie..haha..

2002-12-23T02:04:00.000-08:00

haha jo gave me my pressie todae..plus a xmas card..haha she claims dat the bears are realli cute..den she came again aft the trip frm esplanade to pass me clara's xmas card..feel bad coz i din send a single one this yr..um nxt yr maybe? nwaes to all the peeps out dere-- wishin u guys the merriest xmas! haf fun durin this festive season. lotsa love..

2002-12-20T06:32:00.000-08:00

haha finally turned 14 todae! one yr into my teens..so fast..haha. went orchard wif my bro to meet my mum this aftnn..had lunch at yoshinoya..den we toured like practically all the shopping centres dere coz we were meeting my dad at marche fer dinner. haha my bro n i wuz complaining all the time abt hw tired our feet were..but it wuz a v fruitful trip i muz sae. haha finally got the blue dog frm

2002-12-17T21:12:00.000-08:00

xins came to my hse juz nw to give me my birthday pressies! haha..it's this realli cute inflatable bear plus a dino plush toy..qt big..she even bought two tarts and a candle..so we lighted it n she sang me a birthday song. haha it's realli nice of her..thnx xins! luv ya loads. << ade>> thnx tons fer the bear..tho the 'horrible' thing din pull thru successfully..haha. tk lotsa care.

2002-12-16T05:04:00.000-08:00

juz came back frm dinner at hougang mall..juz love the western fd at the coffeeshop! haha. nwaes i went jogging wif my bro n two ynger cousins at 4 plus. den the rain got heavier hafway. so we juz stayed at the specs stand to do sit-ups and stuff. qt fun lah actually. we were like chasing each other on the way to and back frm the stadium. haha nwaes got to sae smthng. Nougats are the grtest! hah

2002-12-13T19:23:00.000-08:00

watched the eps of huang hou jing gong few daes ago. n smthng qianqian's father mentioned struck a chord in me. no hurts and pain will last forever. sure hope its true.

2002-12-13T19:15:00.000-08:00

hah back again..nwaes farewell was qt fun..was already totally drenched when i reached my snr's condo. plus we had to play games in the rain..so i wuz like freezin away. bleahs. well the barbecue din start till qt late becoz of the rain. n me n becca din get to eat much cause her father came n i wuz takin a lift frm him. we even got lost tryin to find the car! hah. okies so the baseline is i wuz

2002-12-12T20:31:00.000-08:00

ok guess i'll settle for this for the time being coz i haf to leave fer my senior's hse soon. yay we're hafin the sec 4 farewell! haha i'm sure it'll be fun. or is it s'posed to be sad instead? hmm. nwaes shall come back n experiment more when i return. yup.

2002-12-12T20:22:00.000-08:00

ok i conclude this is bad. like really. coz i've been fiddling wif the template stuff fer so long before i managed to get it look alright. even so it doesn't look all dat right. sheesh.

2002-12-12T20:05:00.000-08:00

haha my first entry here..hope my attempt at creating a blog doesn't fail me...?